Ok, Let's start again. My life school in the junior high school didn't run smoothly. Last time i post said that one of gang in my school start to push me. The leader of the gang was a girl among many boys and few girls. In that time, that gang is one of the most famous gang that have power and ability to 'kick' out people that they do not want to see. If a student become that gang member, it is mean that he will become powerful. After they pushed me to testing me before i recruid to became their member. The leader put me in the condition that i'm guilty,She said that she will not stop until i cried and confess that she is powerful. I refuse to join with them and obey their rules. After several times of attack they did to me, i never cried even once, it make the leader saw a great princip in my life that she never found in her life. She declares that Priska is the member and have same power. Once again, i refused to be called as their member because I didn't want to push other people.
My 7th grade has passed and we move to 8th grade
Based on the experience in 7th grade, I laready have a plan to protect myself. In the 7th grade i never said uselesswords, i never mad to other people but when i studied in the 8th grade, the whole world of mine changed. My cognitive scored goes down, against teachers, and became some on rude. All of those things was happened in the first semester of 8th grade. If we are now in 2009, i will regret for what i've done along my school years. But now in 2011, i can smile and said that the process that God let me to feel is not useless because I really enjoy my 8th grader life that full with cherish and purity. I was lost once and i don't want to see my students did the same like me about useless words and rude actions. I can changed in the second semester after i join with one retreat that held by my local church. I always remember that EVERY THING WE DO AND EVERY WORD WE SAY,HAVE CONSEQUENCES since that i commit my self to control my words.
As a girl i ever fall in love and he is my first love. In the first meeting, we argue each other to divide our table. His stuffs are not allowed to be in my area and opposite. We divide it by metal ruler(my area) and plastic ruler(his area). I gave this rule because i hate him. He always disturb my friends and i can't accept it. He obviously put his things on my area until i mad to him. The first impression sentence that i ever heard is " Why you hates me? Am i made any mistakes to you?" I just think in silent and realize that my friends should not affect my relation with any body else. I said to him, you always disturb my friend, my friend said it to me. He replied, have you ever know me before until you can judge me based on your friends opinion? In short, i impressed with him because he is not like what my friends said. Everyday we sang 3 favorites songs. So many beautiful days goes on but we never called our selves as a couple. literaly i can't said that i ever "in a relationship".
In the 9th grade our friendship stand still until he have to move from my school in senior high school. I faced a dilematic problem here. i confused to decide rather i have to letting go or move with him. In the other sidem there is one girl that put symphaty on him and tried to put me down. My best friends even became a backstabber and put my name on gambling table with him. They did't think about my feelings. But I decide to stay and forget all of those sad memories.
THE NEW PAGE
I came to a new pages in my life. Like another junior high students that feel proud to be senior one, so do i. I enter a new page on my life because i have to find a friend from the start again. In this stage, i have 3 best friends until now. Three womans with one man and that man always sat with me. Many teachers that went into our class always made sugesstion to build a special relationship with him. I never thaught that i will have any special relationship with him. This grade also become one of factors that made me choose social studies. I found difficulties to remember all of latin name in Biology, Besides that, I don't like to sank in competition. I guess almost all of smart persons go to IPA but the reality is not like that.
In the eleven grade I actually start to search the 'one' that can replaced my last experience that yet so unforgetable. I pray and I not really concern of it until one day , i went to Bandung and join with one competition. Day before i go, i said that i will never believe love in the first sight. It is what happened to me. oh no, what's happen to me. I build close relationship as a fiend about 2 months, but those coupke months make me have a wrong concept about the ideal man in my life. I put expectations to have some one that put attentionon one me from morning until night. I love the one that have criterias like that or the one more than it. I seacrh not a true love but the one that can make a new status on my life.
In the twelve grade i still have a worries of it but not as big as in the XI grade because I put my attention to search university and can graduate from high school....to be continued...
As a girl i ever fall in love and he is my first love. In the first meeting, we argue each other to divide our table. His stuffs are not allowed to be in my area and opposite. We divide it by metal ruler(my area) and plastic ruler(his area). I gave this rule because i hate him. He always disturb my friends and i can't accept it. He obviously put his things on my area until i mad to him. The first impression sentence that i ever heard is " Why you hates me? Am i made any mistakes to you?" I just think in silent and realize that my friends should not affect my relation with any body else. I said to him, you always disturb my friend, my friend said it to me. He replied, have you ever know me before until you can judge me based on your friends opinion? In short, i impressed with him because he is not like what my friends said. Everyday we sang 3 favorites songs. So many beautiful days goes on but we never called our selves as a couple. literaly i can't said that i ever "in a relationship".In the 9th grade our friendship stand still until he have to move from my school in senior high school. I faced a dilematic problem here. i confused to decide rather i have to letting go or move with him. In the other sidem there is one girl that put symphaty on him and tried to put me down. My best friends even became a backstabber and put my name on gambling table with him. They did't think about my feelings. But I decide to stay and forget all of those sad memories.
THE NEW PAGE
I came to a new pages in my life. Like another junior high students that feel proud to be senior one, so do i. I enter a new page on my life because i have to find a friend from the start again. In this stage, i have 3 best friends until now. Three womans with one man and that man always sat with me. Many teachers that went into our class always made sugesstion to build a special relationship with him. I never thaught that i will have any special relationship with him. This grade also become one of factors that made me choose social studies. I found difficulties to remember all of latin name in Biology, Besides that, I don't like to sank in competition. I guess almost all of smart persons go to IPA but the reality is not like that.
In the eleven grade I actually start to search the 'one' that can replaced my last experience that yet so unforgetable. I pray and I not really concern of it until one day , i went to Bandung and join with one competition. Day before i go, i said that i will never believe love in the first sight. It is what happened to me. oh no, what's happen to me. I build close relationship as a fiend about 2 months, but those coupke months make me have a wrong concept about the ideal man in my life. I put expectations to have some one that put attentionon one me from morning until night. I love the one that have criterias like that or the one more than it. I seacrh not a true love but the one that can make a new status on my life.In the twelve grade i still have a worries of it but not as big as in the XI grade because I put my attention to search university and can graduate from high school....to be continued...
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